I can not help but feel that this emptiness stems from me and that I am doing something wrong. I lay in bed for several minutes, perhaps even hours before drifting off into sleep as millions of thoughts cross my mind. The main thought is my future: a career, a family, a life that seems impossible to obtain yet something that I must obtain soon. Following this train of thought is everything that must be accomplished on the way to achieving this future I have envisioned, a future I believe God is calling me to, my perceived purpose in life.
My thoughts have now become scattered and I don't know where to begin, such is my life. I guess what I am trying to express is the fact that I care for so many people, care for them so much that I would sacrifice so much for them yet, I don't think they are aware of this. I have this compassion swelling up inside of me, this love for these people who have touched my life in such a short period of time that I do not know what to do. I have spent my whole life entering relationships that I could back out of easily because I made sure not to get too far emotionally invested and now that this has changed... well... it will take some getting used to. Let's just hope this change is for the better.
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