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When I said that something changed over winter break I meant it. It wasn’t the smoggy air that nestled on the campus green or the change in classes from the first semester to the second. No, this change was a change that took place in every one of us, in each and every student that returned home for the holidays and returned with a hope to make the second semester more successful than the first.
I may be a guy but I am not an idiot when it comes to reading people. Each and every person has small idiosyncrasies and these can be picked up on. While someone smiles and laughs they feel a deep pain on the inside. I would be lying to myself if what happened was a surprise, I dare admit that I too thought of ending my relationship many a time. The distance that I returned to was just not something I wanted, but I didn’t want to abandon someone I cared so deeply about either.
My heart aches, yes. I cared for her very much. She was sweet, kind, funny, beautiful and smart. She shared my passion for creativity and the written word, a passion few people I have ever met have shared in. And in looking for a source to blame I can find none. We are all people trying to live our lives in a world that is fair to no one. And though my tears tell me otherwise, I know I must move on.
